Love my Best Friends

Best surprise I have had in a long time.

Something I need to say

It's not going to be my fault

Bachelorette on the loose

I had an amazing Bachelorette Party. It was low key, yet crazy. There are fun stories and awesome memories from that night and it was almost everything I could expect from a party like that. Plus a few crazy surprises.
It was an incredibley late night, but I loved it.

Dancing with the Canidate.

Just for a laugh-

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Apparently-

I am here for whatever you need when you need it.
I am helpful, thoughtful and kind. I am supportive and understanding.

Maybe you are confusing me for a doormat.
It ends.

Diddy Blog

Thank you for showing me this Lb

I promise myself-

To be so strong, that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.

To make friends feel that there is something worth while inside of them.

To look on the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.

To think of the best, work for the best, and expect only the best.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

-Christian D. Larson

modified from The Secret

You betcha!

Roxy

A truly happy person enjoys the scenery on a detour

So there are some things that don't go your way. It happens to everyone. I think for me I try and make the best out of everything that is thrown at me. But this issue is just eating me up inside lately-
Life tends to do what it may. I thought that I would be truly happy just knowing a few facts about my bio-logical dad, but I am not. I am angry that someone who is a parent to me, has never spent more than 5 minutes with me in my entire existance. I am angry that I have to wonder about the rest of my family and step brothers and/or sisters.
But I feel like a hypocrite knowing I do not want kids. Maybe my own father felt the same way. He had my stepbrother with another woman (before me) and then when I came into light, maybe he knew kids werent for him and moved on. Thats the way I feel now about myself and children.
I think part of me doesn't want kids because I am afraid that I will not be able to be a good parent. That I will be to wrapped up in myself.. as my own father was, to be able to truly raise another human being. I love my sisters to death, but when it comes down to it- I can send them home at the end of the day. Maybe those reasons for me not wanting kids are his fault, the man that I have never met or never supported me-
On the other hand - I have a lot of great people who support me and know about the feelings that I have for my father. I have a step dad, 2 uncles and a grandpa who mean the world to me and who have supported me countlessly. I am happy with those people. They have made something that was agonizing, into just some passing ocassional anger and sadness. I can say that I am happy, because I know I am. A small fraction of my life that consumes me in madness/sadness over this issue can be resolved by letting it out and moving on. That is what I am trying to do.

Undecided-

A friend of mine showed me his blog one day.. I decided to sign up. I am totally undecided if I am going to share this with anyone.

Lately I feel like everyone knows all my business and there is not much left personal or sacred. I do put my life out there for people to know and see but I think that I need to take something back as just mine. I am getting married. Losing my last name and gaining a new one. I know that the acceptable thing for me to be is excited about that idea, but it makes me nervous. I already signed the papers that say I am changing my name and becoming a Mrs. _______ but it is a step that makes me a little dizzy.